it's my life!

2011-08-26T12:39:00.002+08:00

I realised that u have a problem accepting me for who I am after all... And its disappointed because it wasn't what I expected u to be.

2010-09-23T17:20:00.002+08:00

今天我又为了你落泪,我真的哭了好久.但我发誓这是最后一次让你成为我落泪的原因.你再也不值得我宝贵的泪水.

从今天起,我会彻底的放弃,不再有任何虚假的希望...

2010-09-22T20:42:00.002+08:00

honestly,i dont think anyone will ever understand the struggles im going through right now.im so so so lost i dont know which way am i supposed to head anymore.i used to be led by blind hope but now i've awaken.

please please stop leading me in the wrong direction and giving a false sense of hope when in actual fact u aren't interested.im a girl after all and not all the smiles and laughter that i supposedly portray.

perhaps u made your stand clear by saying that i am your "bestest of best best friend".is that supposed to draw that line?im hoping for too much aren't i?

u said u dont know.its absurd.if u dont,who else will?

after today,i think i will give up.it's really too tiring.

2010-09-11T22:48:00.003+08:00

life these days are super boring.the silence is deafening and im not used to any of this.but im the coward who refuses to come out of hiding.how am i supposed to come out of hiding when i dont feel the way i felt anymore?

i used to think i was special.now i think back and laugh at my stupidity.how much more naive could i possibly get?everyone around gets the same kind of treatment.that's how blind i am to the truth when immersed in my own world.

things are going along just fine without me,it seems.so im just that dispensible.everything is so....lope-sided,everything just due to my foolishness.

now i know.

2010-09-02T22:04:00.002+08:00

im currently counting on the fact that everyone has given up hope on my blog and do not come here anymore.so i can write what i honestly feel

i bet u never realised how much sting your words could carry compared to others.the feeling of being stung isnt in the least nice,"painful" would be apt.surprisingly,the apology that follows made things more painful.

honestly i dont know what on earth u are thinking,sometimes im like your clown,entertaining u at your beck and call.is that all im worth to u?u seriously got me confused.

2009-11-15T17:02:00.002+08:00

GOOD RIDDANCE TO PW!!!~

i'm finally back to blog!haha.i was lazy to type previously u see.

been to watch 2012.not a bad movie,it was thought provoking.and especially disgusting to see how selfish people can be for their own sake.CG was fake though,how on earth can the Vatican fall forward when it is not very tall and quite broad?haha.but people should go watch it anyway.

I STILL WANNA WATCH MY SISTER'S KEEPER!

on a more sombre tone,i want to say all these in case i do not blog on the 18th.

it's been one whole year since u left so unexpectedly without even saying goodbye,and the pain has never gotten any lesser.it still feels like it just happened yesterday.

i remember crying every night after that incident,i just felt so guilty.i regretted taking u for granted,staying away from u just because we could not communicate.if only i had tried harder.i never got the chance to be nice to u,and u never got the chance to enjoy what i worked hard for.

it's all too late for regrets huh.i can only learn my lesson and not make i again.

i always thought that u leaving would have a greater effect,bringing everything back together.at least that was what it seemed like initially.little did i think that things did not turn out that way.some things are just not meant to be.

through this year,i've grown up a lot,learnt a lot too.i've learnt the is no use crying,no matter how hard things get.i've learnt that if things are too painful,there is no way to erase that pain no matter long much time has passed.i've learnt that i must treasure every single thing,no matter how small.

daddy said that i should not cry,mummy and my brothers still need to count on me.

2009-11-09T11:25:00.002+08:00

yes cherie i know my post was supposed to be here long long ago.but i got nothing to blog mah.

but today is different!i got alot of things to blog about!i will blog it tonight haha cos my laptop dying soon and i did not bring my charger.....

be a little more patient folks!

2009-10-26T22:52:00.003+08:00

updating again cos cherie is asking me to.she must be damn bored to keep reading my blog

today im even more pissed off then i was doing WR.cos a certain somebody say meet in school at 9am.at 830 the person say change to 10am.fine.then at 12pm when we having lunch this person say just leave house.in the end 1pm then reach school.thanks alot

what gives u any right to sleep in any later than anyone of us?u think u are the only one tired?happy then can sleep until 10 or 11.i honestly had enough of u.first u say i never do anything when there was one night when all of us chionging WR and u just sit there to wait for us to submit.next u come late 9 out of 10 times.hello!i'm human and i have got a limit okay?being a group leader doesnt give u any special rights.what's more i got a sotong for a leader.that's even more classic.its seriously byebye PW.

if not for the fact that there are only a few more days to th end of PW i swear i would not just sit there and say nothing.

BOY AM I PISSED WITH THIS PERSON

2009-10-24T15:16:00.003+08:00

finally WR is done.OP here i come!hopefully there is no need to not sleep all night anymore.

just read cherie's blog about a certain bean.you go girl!that bean certainly knows no limit huh.damn bitchy.based on your qualities you wanna snatch people's boyfriend?please la.no mirror tell me and i can be nice to buy one for you,no strings attached.you think that cherie is nice to you then you can climb onto her head?can you even reach it?i dunno that you could be that cheapo.first you asked her to buy wadever you want.now even her boyfriend you also want.as if being a cradle snatcher not enough.please la.small boys accept you as boyfriend only because they do not know anything.try finding a guy 2 years older and see if you bloody stand a chance.oh and keep your hands to yourself okay,hands off _________.what's up with eyeing your friend's(are we your friends?) guys.one not enough want to take two friends' one huh.fat hope.

i shall not go much further.cherie has done enough.wait bean go complain to her boyfriend(i'm scared) say we slap her again.next bean will say what,we beat her up? =.=

2009-10-23T05:32:00.002+08:00

wonderful, simply wonderful. i haven't been sleeping since last night and here i am still chionging my WR.deadline: 2 hours away.congrats to myself.

its sucky u know, when u thought that everything was alright and then WHAM!another teacher rejects it.thanks alot.then he tells u "it's okay,u have 24 more hours" but we gotta redo all of our proposals!byebye project work.

on the brighter side,i miss SHIT la.quickly get this crap done and over with so we can really relax and playyyyy!

2009-10-21T15:53:00.002+08:00

hahahaha...its been eons since i last updated my blog.i didnt even know that there was something wrong with my blogskin.wad a responsile blog owner i am.

so yea.here i am.doing some maintainence and sweeping away wadever cobwebs there are.promos have been okay,not as bitchy as i thought it would be,and im proud to say that i have subdued that bitch.

now there is an even bigger bitch than promos,her name is PW.so bitchy that it is a great big pain in the butt.simply irritating.and im updating my blog cause im slacking during my PW lesson,or rather what is supposed to be my PW lesson =.=

this post is rather crappy and i have finished crapping.too bad for people who wasted 5 minutes of their time reading nothing but crap.haha

2009-08-23T17:54:00.002+08:00

can't concentrate.too many things going through my mind.

where are all of shit?argh i wanna go crazy with all of u if not i will on my own soon.i need to laugh like nobody's business and talk to all of u!

but it seems this coming wednesday just isn't the day.sigh

2009-08-22T11:23:00.002+08:00

WARNING: this will be a emo post so those who hate reading such thing press the red button on the top right/left(for those using macs) corner of the window.

came to blog because i have decided,despite cherie's objections,to give up(sorry cherie!).there is no point hanging onto something that i know nothing will happen.and besides,giving up early is so much easier than later.

its kinda ironic though,that it looks like what has happened in the past is going to happen again.kinda makes me wonder what is going on.why am i on a merry go round that cant seem to stop?all these are leaving me breathless.

2009-07-19T23:43:00.003+08:00

i wonder why i even update my blog.nobody actually comes to see this anyway.maybe i should just shut it down.

anyways ytd was a nice day.haha.made use of ruiling's naive nature to give her a big birthday suprise(ok fine,it wasnt really big,but still...yu know).glad that she was happy though.i wont go into the details lah.its all on the other people's blog

many things have been bothering me these days.my performance suck be it academic or CCA.like that how to get into the team???im so going to let people down.

and now going to sch seems to be deja vu.its so like sec 2.i have to constantly be on the look out.hiding away all the time.what the hell is it that yu want?!?i know im an easy target to bully but just give me a break will yu?this sucks.sooner or later yu might very well be the reason why i hate school.

2009-07-03T15:34:00.002+08:00

yadayadayada.im blogging again!haha

the past few days since school reopened were simply horrible.attending only 2 out of the 4 papers and getting stuck in infirmary for 6 hours straight are simply not worth mentioning.too long story.haha.

exams ended ytd and im letting my hair down for today.currently and KLP starbucks.she studying bio and im watching shows.and i have finished watching Step Up and What A Girl Wants.gonna watch D.I.E now.bye bye!

2009-05-28T22:03:00.002+08:00

RED WE FIGHT.GO FIGHT WIN!!!

PHOBOS THE BEST GIVE ME A HELL YEAH!

hahahahahahahaha.im still giddy from the victory yesterday.can yu like believe i?first!we came in first!oh god.yesterday's gotta be the best day of my life since jc started.heck the sprained ankle.i gave it my all and so did everyone for yesterday's cheerleading and our efforts paid off!!

it goes to show that staying in school until 9+/10 for the past one month plus has paid off(although i still think we won because matthew had the crowd appeal HAHA).and gosh i was running on pure adrenaline the whole of yesterday cos my last meal was at 10 smth in the morning.

now poor jiaying has a sore throat and still she is eating kachang putih plus one bar of chocolate in the afternoon.byebye voice!

im still flying in the cloud of victory(is there even such a thing?)!

2009-05-24T12:31:00.002+08:00

wow.this is the first time in so long that im blogging twice in two weeks.a miracle must have happened.

i feel super slack today.i should be in the library mugging now.but two people cannot go so its cancelled D: i should be studying doing my chem, math, geog, bio tutorials now and apparently im not D: argh.i should really learn to study even outside the library

tmr's a half day!whoo~~ cos it's the soccer boys showdown.hahahahaha.hopefully when we win then we can have a full day(is there even such a thing in MJ?)i can always hope right?

on the serious note,im really getting sick of the JC life.the stress is horrible, the food is equally horrible.the only thing i like about JC is my friends.and occasionally my eyecandy.haha.i think im gonna go bonkers soon(huiying would most probably laugh her head off if it ever happens).im tired,not only physically but also mentally.squad outing please,i think they are my only source of relaxation.laugh until six pecs form.

i miss them alot la.

who else can i suan until they pekchek but i know they would not get angry but instead laugh it off with me(yes shirong, bryan, gerald, huiying too!)?

who else would suan me about my height and colour like there was no tmr?

who else can i talk to without any forms of restriction cos i kno wthat i can trust them with my life?

who else knows the very way to cheer me up that is confirm failproof?

this list could go on but the point is that i miss the squad 92 alot.

2009-05-22T22:52:00.002+08:00

dead blog.unenthu owner.sorry whoever bored enough to come here.

been really busy these days.cheerleading causes me to go home late everyday.10pm that kind of late ok?lol

sports season coming to an end soon.that means no more cheering like siao people.will miss that(i think).monday is soccer boys finals.MJC bring them down now!hahahaha.

oh and wednesday is colosseum le!so hopefully i will not screw the 4x100m and cross fingers and pray hard that our effort has not gone down the drain.but i think this year the cheerleading super unique.its cheerleading without stunts(i.e. dance) cos of the high number of casualties.i think its kinda ironic.what is cheerleading without stunts?its called DANCE.but oh wells,it seems like an advantage to us,so why not?(i dont think i really have any idea what im talking about.must be because of the lack of sleep)

i should feel happy yet all i feel is fear.i ought to be acceptive but here i am,defensive.what am i thinking?but all i know is that im going through hell AGAIN.

2009-04-09T02:04:00.003+08:00

LIFE IN JC SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!!

RAWRRRRR!im so dead now.

i shouldn't be blogging now lo cos im still chionging pw.suck.suck.suck.

can yu look at the time of this post?im supposed to be concuss-ed then waking up at 530 to go sch!im so so so screwed.

oh freak.i shall just go to sleep first.bargain with teacher tmr(he'd better not see this).

see huiying, i updated!

2009-03-23T20:21:00.004+08:00

HUIYING YIXIN XIAOHUI

I SWEAR TO LOVE THEM FOREVER

I SWEAR TO BE NICE TO THEM FOR ETERNITY

THEY HAVE A PLACE IN MY HEART NXT TO CHOCOLATES (nibble nibble)

THEY ROCKED MY WORLD!!!!

2009-03-17T11:53:00.004+08:00

lalalala!yes im finally back to update my blog.sorry it took so long cos jiaying is a busy person!wahahahaha!

campfire!yes i know it was quite long ago.just take it i inherited huiying's genes ok?so let's start from the afternoon.jx and i were late for the lunch so the others go with us to see us eat.cant help it that im dua pai ok(i'm so gonna get bashed up)!took bus to sch there to rent bike.we were planning to go overnight cycling yu see.then we cycled into school.played a while then rotted in the "bunk" while playing taboo.

finally when campfire started,we were the only super high people.and all the juniors look at us like we siao like that -.- the campfire was a bit too short then got alot of songs not sung,sad-ded sia.

after campfire we cycled but it was not overnight.just cycled to kallang macs only.played a bit of taboo and realised that we were starting to memorise the words.so switched to playing charades with the words instead.laugh until can die.and we became the centre of attraction again.

mh and jx went to another table and played bingo but they looked funny like a couple going to break up but not willing like that.so yx and i became their voices and made the whole thing look super drama.also laugh like crazy.

soon after everyone went to sleep except me.bored until crazy can?see everyone sleep i also wanna sleep but i sleep then who take care of the things?so i scarifice lo *vomits*.

decided to beat the heavy traffic flow so we left at 7+.wanted to go back to school to sleep in the bunk but the stupid security dun allow.so we cycled to arthur road playground then slept there like a bunch of hooligans.but i too sweet then all the mosquitoes bite me,damn itchy then cant sleep.

ok it's getting draggy so that's all for now.

p.s. a word of advice,when staying overnight,dun call mh along.he will just sleep the whole night through.

2009-03-01T11:58:00.003+08:00

i swear the previous post was not done by me.two people did it without my notice.lol.

anyways this post goes out to a few people specially,namely xiaohui, yixin, huiying, minghui, gerald, jinxue and nevin.also to detian and hewei.why?cos i ben ben get tricked by them.damn!haha.

the night before ytd,xh tell me she wanna get math notes frm me.so i agree lo.then ytd at 10+ i go pass to her.when i walk past the bbq pit that time,i heard ppl call my name and when i turned back,guess what?xh, yx,hy,mh, ger and jx pop out.then they started to sing birthday song for jx first then me, so i was not the only person who got surprised.haha.jx thought it was for me only mah.heh.

nevin came late.but still thanks.hewei and detian were part of it too but they couldn't make it.thanks anyway!

i still cannot believe it man.nevin and jx were so close to giving the surprise away yet i could not see through.damn!am i really that stupid?

on a darker tone, death vs suffering, it's ironic. so much so that i still cannot figure it out.

2009-02-28T17:31:00.001+08:00

HuiYing XiaoHui YiXin ROX!!

2009-02-16T22:16:00.005+08:00

Sorry to people who have been waiting to see new posts.been busy mugging lately.shocking right?even people like me will mug.who ask me get into a mugger JC?

nothing really interesting took place,and it was a pity that i couldn't spend more time with S.H.I.T on Valentine's day.but nevermind.there will be another time when we will meet again soon right?(cross my fingers and hope it will be real soon)i miss them alot ok?those times when we just sit there and go crazy then laugh like no one around us.yea ok i'll stop boring yu guys with these emo stuff.hahaha.

tmr CCA results will be out!(squash!squash!squash!squash!it's the only thing i can do well ok?) lol.

currently im going bananas over this certain guy.he's hot and good looking PLUS a great personality!how not to be obsessed?hahaha.yes im fa hua chi-ing.cannot say name cos im not the only one going bananas,wait get hamtam i die.

ok im off to mug(again) but before that let me show yu guys the picture of the day!

2009-02-02T21:50:00.005+08:00

whoo people i'm back to blog!hahahahahaha

okies first things first.today was a horrible day.absolutely horrible.ya i know that its the first day of JC today and most JCs start with orientation BUT NOT MJC!grrrrr.we are like the only JC in Singapore that starts off the first day with lectures can!?!special or not yu tell me -.- its like they want us to choose first then orientation by class.hmm that sounds logical,or does it?lol.anw i was so bored to death and so xinyi and i decided to pont two of the lectures.we were not the only ones lor,many ppl also pont.haha

oh ya.since MJC is like opposite my primary school,i met plenty of familiar faces in MJ,its like reliving primary school again -.-

today aside,yesterday met up with xiaohui for breakfast(ya i know it sounds kuku,like who the hell meets up for breakfast???me.)so we went to ps for breakfast(not i choose one) and stuffed our faces until we nearly died cos the servings are super huge.its a pity Gerald(Tuzon) is going back.now no more shuai ge to see le D':

after breakast pangsehed xiaohui(sorry!) to pei family go sit flyer.then i realised i can get free ticket cool anot yu tell me!haha.pictures next time la ok?i busy choosing my courses la.heh.so thats all for now!buhbye!

2009-01-23T23:55:00.001+08:00

okay i know my words too small to see,so i make big big one ok?

anyways,im off to genting!haha.goodbye people!cya next week!lalalalala.

2009-01-11T16:40:00.006+08:00

1.Who's the person that tagged you?

-Minghui

2.Relationship between you and him?

-Papa!

3.Three impressions of him?

-Siao,siao,siao

4.If he becomes your enemy, you will?
-Poke him until he dies

5.What will you say to the person you like very much?

-go and die?stupid question-.-

6.Characteristics I lyk abt myself?

-everything?

7.Characteristics I hate abt myself?

-Maybe that because i made friends with yu.

8.For the person whom you hate, you say?

-if i hate yu,will i still talk to yu?

9.What do people feel abt you?

-Im noisy

10.your crush?

-from here to JB,hah

11.Pass this to 10 people

1.Xiaohui

2.Yixin

3.Huiying

4.Detian

5.Gerald

6.Delvis

7.Aulydia

8.Wangzhen

9.Hewei

10.Tanjin

12.If 5&7 were together?

-they dun even know each other.but she likes dogs!

13.Who does 5 like?

-other dogs and bitches

14.What does 9 like?

-other gays?!?

15.Say something abt 8?

-bloody irritating.

16.Who is 2?

-wife of (fill it in yourself)

17.Talk abt 3.

-L-A-G

18.Who is 10's best fren?

-Sijia!

19.Who is sexiest among all?

-HEWEI WINS HANDS DOWN!

20.What colour does 4 like?

-like i would know?

21.Is 4 single?

-think so.are yu?

22.Your relationship with 1?

-my bus/siao/talk/teh tarik/e.t.c mate.hah

23.Are 5&6 best frens?

-more like gays

24.9's surname?

-SPEARS!haha.

25.7's nickname?

-not that i can think of any?eh Aulydia yu have?

26.Say something to 8.

-STOP PISSING ME OFF!

27.say something to help 9.

-YES MA'AM!(was that even helpful?)

28.Who does 1 admire?

-ME

29.Where does 1 live?

-in my bathtub!

30.10 of them know who you like?

-nope.not all.hah.i like xiaozhu

31.Say something to 6 when you see him.
-Manicure!

32.10's spouse?

-Mrs Banana Tan Sijia(there goes me)

that's all!

2009-01-11T15:50:00.005+08:00

FRIDAY.WAS.THE.BEST.NIGHT.EVER
it was like the outing that i have looked forward to since god knows when.$18 per person was abit steep but it came with priceless happiness,endless laughters and the fondest of memories.heh.cheem right?

steamboat is nice cos yu can eat/talk/laugh/gay/eat somemore all yu want.haha.delvis was the nice papa who let xh and i manicure him.nice right?gerald was the papasan/60 year old uncle.suan by us like siao.

btw,even though there was unlimited food,sijia decided it was still nicer to snatch food from other people(i.e minghui and yixin).still cant figure out why.lol.

ok the main point is that i really enjoyed the steamboat -.-

i like ngee ann poly's open house better than singapore poly's cos it was more hands on.in other words F-U-N.haha.esp the part where we sabotaged gerald alot.the food also very nice.

ok folks,wish me luck tmr!

2009-01-04T17:47:00.004+08:00

BLOODY EMO... *starts slashing my own wrists*

got myself thinking alot these days.but now that i've got most of it out,it ain't that bad anymore...thanks xiaohui for listening!yu know me huh?

im gonna be outta job soon!ARGHHH PS please accept me please please.i dun wanna be rotting away at home.

anyways it seems ironic past one month i was busy like hell juggling two jobs and now im jobless*sobs*

long long time since we had a squad outing and although yesterday was not a proper one,half of the people were there.hah.9th Jan faster come!then we have a mini reunion dinner!

if a squad outing has no girls going with me,im not going!im gonna die waiting for the guys shop like auntie like that.can die of boredom one.wad is the world turning into?!?

ok final words for now:I MISS YOU.think wadever yu want, only xiaohui knows who im refering to heh.

2008-12-20T21:05:00.000+08:00

BLOODY TIRED.

DETAILS NEXT TIME.

2008-12-13T20:49:00.003+08:00

yes yes yes. yu not dreaming. i have revived my blog hehs. i know hardly anyone comes here now, but since yu're here, HELLO TO YU!i changed the blogskin too cos i was sick of the old one

actually, i came to blog because i just wanna say I LOVE TO PEOPLE AT CARTEL WHERE I WORK! they are like super nice can? on wednesday i was sick and giddy and they were extra careful with me like asking me if i was alright every few minutes and minimising my workload, which meant that the other people did more and they were like "never mind la, ni shi bing ren ma" -.- ok lo.

today was better big boss raymond made me a big cup of oreo frappe(its against the rules but since he's the big boss,it doesn't matter right?) i feel bad la cos i owe people favours.

so people, if yu are looking for a job, go cartel! the benefits are fantastic!but must be 16 and above.hah.

p.s. i got a colleague who looks super like ruijing.anyone knows if ruijing got an elder brother?

2008-06-18T15:30:00.007+08:00

today is another blah day.yes.it is only on blah days that i update my blog it seems.but im just purely lazy to type so much la.

since there is nothing much to blog about today,i shall talk about yesterday.went to study group and for the first time ever,i was the first to reach.and thats because huiying and yixin didnt go.studied from 9 to 10 then went to bras besar then to macs for some munch.went back to library to study only to go for lunch at 1230 and going back at 430 again.during the 'lunch' period we went a hell lot of places.we turned out to go shopping instead.but it sucked.i saw so many nice things only to be unable to buy.grrr.

as we were going back to the library,saw two mad women waving like crazy.yep.yixin and her sister at J.Co.we joined them and became crazy(as usual).and we even got scolded by the people a few times.cant help it.when we are together,sure will irritate people.especially when they set the rocket launcher(me) flying.sure will be chaos.yep.

went library to get our bags and rotted at macs.then we heard something that made xiaohui and me laugh like siao

hewei:wad are the three waste products of iron extraction huh?
tanjin:*******,******* and ********
xiaohui and me:(laughs)

after rotting for quite long we decided to go.went by an unfamiliar road,past the toy museum.tempted to go in very much but then decided to give that idea up.instead tj entertained us by waving and saying hi to whoever we passed.it was hilarious though,seeing all the shock tio faces.

then we saw something that caught our eye.a coustume shop.it was cool.filled with all sorts of costumes and mascots and masks.but it was kinda creepy too with all the masks looking at yu.gosh.but here are some things that we took.

yep i guess thats all.tmr im going shopping!wahahahas.

2008-06-01T12:24:00.003+08:00

POP.i thought it was supposed to be a sad event.apparently for our squad it isn't.we spent too much time laughing at our unglamness,spasticness and every other retardedness(i know there are no such words but wadever la).

its been almost 4 years now.and here we are,calling each other all sorts of name.laughing at each other.it is so different from the first time when we met.we were supposed to play murderer but we were all to shy to hold one another's hand that the ncos then had to force us to.then came whacko and some retard kept insisting his name was NEW FRIEND(yu all should know who).

the first camp was a little tough for us but we went through it with gritted teeth.it was when we had a clear view of wad NP was like with fun and toughness.the first campfire went by with us singing "never had a dream come true" and performing a skit that the ncos could tell staright away who was acting as who.

then came the first bbq at my house.we made such a din that the security guard kept coming to ask us keep our volumes down.it was the first time when we created our dirty dance(whoo~).it was the first time when we drenched guohui with buckets of water.and he promised us the d***x until now also haven't give.

the second batch of ncos who took us gave us the motivation to be who we are now.to work hard and play like siao.that was the time when we knew when we had to be serious and when we could be relaxed.

the second camp came and we performed another skit.this time suaning donglin about his height.we sang "yi zhi dao zui hou" with our very own version of lyrics in english.

the first ATC.where we made friends and foes(huiying's geog marks) from other schools.where us girls were so sure we were much more man than girls from other school(we could go without a bath for 4 days straight).we would get down to get dirty without much of a whine

i remember that there was a period of time when our attendance was horrible.we had a record attendance of only 6 people.and all were girls.

we held our second bbq.there was only 8 people present.so i don;t think that can be considered as a squad bbq.

there was a third squad bbq.i was not present though.so i cant tell yu wad happened.

the next batch of ncos came to take over.it was only a short period of time.but it was during this time when so much politics happened.when everyone started to bitch about one another.NP became depressing.

the fourth squad bbq.to celebrate sijia's and my birthday.they day when we adopted mao jing and jing mao.unfortunately both cats died.i remember yixin trying to teach the cats to read the newspaper =.=

squad chalet.the best part of our squad life.we came together to stay in one house for 3 nights.with the last night the best of all.i remember minghui's steamrolling "yu better sleep or else i steamroll yu hor" then yu hear everyone groan as minghui really steamrolls(that was the first night).insomniac bryan.halfway while everyone sleep yu hear him kicking the ball and making the guitar fall,then at 530am he starts shouting"hewei ni bu yao fang wo ge zi hor""hewei wake up!"there went my one night's sleep o.O we had bbq every night.eat until scared.the guys went to walk about and ended up buying the $2 "tissue".detian's fault.he paid for it.mahjong sessions,lag attack(heart attack),monopoly,etc.the last night we laughed till our stomachs ached.the guys played taupok while we laughed al the way.shirong's "eh.taupok hor" made it even more funny.

we had ncos' course.where we once more bonded.the game of accommodation,where we had to accommodate to one another.we had to extinguish the candles with our perspiration.some did everything they could to perspire while the others collected it.it wasn't easy but still we managed.the pumping game.where we pumped from one side of the concourse to the other.where the officers pumped with us,we shouted all we could.the puzzle game.we all had different parts of the puzzle and had to solve one big puzzle.the game before nightwalk.i dunno wad its called but we managed to complete it before the time was up.

then came nco life.we thought it would be smooth sailing but it wasn't.many people left us.they had simply lost the heart.we stopped drilling as one whole squad.

it was only yesterday when we had one last chance to do wad we haven't did together for a long time.we drilled together.we produced nothing short of solid bangs.we managed to have the bond between us relived again.

44th batch of ncos.ncos forever.

2008-05-26T13:11:00.033+08:00

im finally updating again.ok.sorry for my tardiness and laziness.but at least i update ok?

today is such a humdrum day.stuck at home and cannot go anywhere.i wanna go for the bbq!RAWR!!!sorry sec ones.i really just cannot come.grrr.
iwannagoiwannagoiwannagoiwannagoiwannagoiwannagoiwannagoiwannago!!!!!!!!

now im stuck at home,suppoesedly studying(but obviously not).bored to death.wanted to go to the food fair today but it seems it cannot happen too.sad-ded.oh wells.so i came to update this lifeless website that has been dead many times before.

i got plenty of photos to upload,so feast your eyes!

the last word was extended for a reason ^^

the chinese version
B&J free cone day!

squishy!its disgustingly cute

its squishy again!alex is cute isn't she?SPF
the photos that yu shall see next are all thanks to....

are the guys seductive enough?
they sure are hard at work
and now its our turn
poor detian is stuck at the bottom
its gonna hit tj!
here comes superman!
nerd family
someone sent me launching off
cute enough?
it looks wrong i know
she thinks she can change the wheel -.-
thanks lag,if not for yu these pics will not be here.oh ya.there is also a video.find me and i will show it to yu.its hilarious.

everyone has bad hair days.
but xiaohui,its abit too bad isnt it?
wakakaka.thats all for now folks!

2008-04-27T11:51:00.002+08:00

ever since the camp, i've done a hell lot of thinking.and i came to realise something.i've failed terribly as an NCO.no offence to the other 4 sec one squad taking NCOs but i really think that the 5 of us have really failed in being leaders to our squad.

ever since the start,i set a goal that i had wanted the squad to achieve.i wanted to prove the talk about every alternate squads being elites.i wanted to bring the sec ones out of the label that they would not be able to achieve.

because of that,i stood my stand.i would be the bad guy.the one who would be (in their words) cruel to them.i did not like being the bad guy,seriously.it was not my character at all.i'd rather be the one who could play with them.but at the thought of what would be ahead of them,when other batches took over and when they themselves took over,i did not want to see them suffering.i wanted them to prove to others that they were not attitude,that they had what it takes to make them elites.i knew that it would lead to the cadets disliking me for what i did,but i stood ground.

but the 5 of us NCOs could not coordinate ourselves.we had different goals for them.we did not worry over the same things.some preferred to be concerned about the present,while some wanted to care about the future.we lacked the communication.we forgot about our bearing.we overlooked the fact that they still had a long way ahead of them.in short,we failed.

the sec ones right now leave me having no choice at all.i have no idea how to steer those who went off course back on track.i am clueless on how am i supposed to bring those who lack the heart to come in.i don't know how am i to show them where they have gone wrong.should i just listen to what the others say and just leave them what they are,and let the next batch come to do the rest?

i guess it all doesnt matter anymore does it?the journey is approaching an end.but it seems all too difficult to put it all down.i cant bear to.

is it the endless repetition of disappointment that the sec ones give or the inability for us NCOs to see eye to eye that leaves me so exasperated and breathless?

someone once told me that the reason why some of the sec ones would disregard their NCOs boils down to the first impression that we left in them.were we really far too lenient towards them?

rahh.all these questions bug me.and the search for the answers might never be achieved.

2008-03-28T21:58:00.003+08:00

its been a long long time since i last updated.sian.i think im one very lazy blogger.

anyways,the last time i introduced my family right?now i shall do one very formal introduction:

THE DRUG FAMILY

OPIUM(AKA MOM)-RUILING

COCCAINE(AKA BIG BRO)-TANJIN

MARIJUANA(AKA BIG SIS)-ME

HEROIN(AKA SMALL BRO)-DETIAN

ICE(AKA SMALL SIS)-XIAOHUI

GLUE(AKA MY LAOGONG[KIDDING!])-HEWEI(it seriously isn't my idea)

ESTACY(AKA MY BIG DAUGHTER)-YIXIN

KIT-KAT(ketamine)(AKA MY SMALL DAUGHTER)-HUIYING

there are supposed to be two fathers.one of mine and one of detian's.but quite unfortunately,one is dead(my dad) and the other is unfaithful(detian's dad).so we are dadless.sad case right?(sighs)

ok enough of the drug family for now.

yeaterday's tuition was absolutely crazy.tj and i got attacked so he got FR while i was RLWS(cant figure out the acronyms?too bad D:)and xh got really high so she started to jisiao the two people(don't know who?still too bad DD:).gosh im feeling saddist.

my class has a a "magic" craze right now.all thanks to jingshen who comes up with new tricks everyday.but too bad we can see through each of them in a short while.fun seeing Mrs Kee entertain him though.

talking about school,my results suck.so im bucking up in order not to disappoint people again.

tmr's the cc comp.so please do not rain!i dun want it to postpone to next week cos its camp and i will be a spoilsportD: anw,jiayou to us girls!show wad we've got and i want to come back for even more trainings after POP ok!hopefully yu all will get wad i mean.

when can i get my new phone?*sighs again*

2008-03-11T21:36:00.003+08:00

for the past few day i have been seeing the same few people,but doing different things from time to time.lol.and nope,im not getting sick of it.

meet my family:dad-minghui, mum-ruiling, elder half-bro-detian, elder bro-tanjin(adopted), younger sis-xiaohui(adopted too), and daughter-yixin.i have already simplied the ties.the actual one is enough to cause a headache.haha

i shall not blog about yesterday.instead,i will blog about today!lalala~

supposed to meet yixin and tanjin in the morning for breakfast before studying at 8am.i was the only punctual one though -.- reached and called yixin only to find out that my phonecall woke her up.ok nevermind.i called tanjin and when he answered,he was at his house the bus stop.................. so i went to walk walk but found out that got nothing to see cos all the shops not open.sat at macs and stone until tj come.we ate as slowly as we could but when we finished,yixin still not here.and i got conned at the macs !@#$%^&*! tanjin yu could have told me earlier ok?but nevermind.i got a nice heart.yixin came shortly after i got conned and she dabao her meal and rushed to the study lounge like typical kiasu Singaporeans wanting to beat the crowd.luckily for us there was no one ^^ we "choped" three more seats for xiaohui hewei and detian but then realised hewei was not coming.

when everyone came we had quite alot of fun studying.yes,studying can be fun if with the right person~we laughed a lot and got many stares.especially over some super embarassing things like doraemon and vending machine(inside jokes).

for all the weekends starting this saturday,our study group is going to mug like siao!moring till night huh~whoo.im so motivated.time to buy stickers!

2008-02-23T22:17:00.031+08:00

today was a totally hardcore day.lol.it had not started off very well in the morning but it got really fun in the end.

supposed to meet xiaohui at 605 to get to school.bus would be leaving before 645 and guess wad?i woke up at 655.luckily yixin called my house or i would not have woken up.i took mrt there and the ride seemed like it was taking an eternity to get there.but quite luckily,i managed to reach HTA before the boys began the comp.

after the comp,yixin,huiying,xiaohui,jinxue,hewei and i wanted to chiong to kbox to catch the k lunch.then when we reached Lot 1,we found out that kbox closed.!@#$%&*!so we walked around and decided to go eat at pastamania with alvin and delvis.

after lunch,we wanted to go jx house to play bball.but then in the end didnt coz not everyone agreed to.so alvin and delvis went home.we ended up looking for playground to play instead.we played blind mice for quite long and were super high and there was alot of laughter.

play halfway and we decided to take a picture but somehow ended up camwhoring like siao.it was damn fun lar.so cool.maybe im suaku coz its my first time camwhoring so much.and i found out that camwhoring is addictive.very addictive.haha.will put pictures down at the bottom.

after that we went to jinxue house.played bball and found that it was boring so we went to the gym instead.at the gym all of us were training hardcore and trained for a while and dun want le.went to the karaoke room and played with the mics but then the guard chased us out-.-|||

we then played pool which was really very fun.and we literally laughed more than we played.have yu ever seen 7 ppl playing pool?haha.we did just that.and was really very very funny.coz of the stupid actions that everyone did.

i shall stop posting and let the pictures say the rest.

it started off with this picture...

but somehow.........
emo
looking at something high up...
supposed to act cute
pls dun ask wad we were doing...
very tired sleepy heads
try to see the contrast between the front and back
spot the contrast too
looking for a fight?
apparently it was so interesting
we were bullying him XD
supposed to be a gang fight but it didnt look quite right
our very own qian shou guan yin
peek-a-boo!
emoing again
random shot
contrast..
more contrast
even more contrast(tilt head to see)
emo again(tilt head again)
the "cave" looks cute!
the mrt lift was not spared too
its kinda squeezy there!
random shot~

that is jinxue house the lift
more photos will come another time!

2008-02-13T22:01:00.003+08:00

i think i've had waaaayyyy too much bak kua than what i should eat.thats why im sounding like a donkey.for every 10 words i say,8 is out of tune.pro right?thats why after every sentence sure will have people laughing at me.and i found out that other than me,there are many other donkeys in the squad,people who go "eeee orre" all day.

ever since the chinese new year holi day,i've been feeling very shag,very tired all the time.i guess i havent prepped myself for the school life again.lol

i guess i have nothing much else to talk about..

oh ya..

DARS BLACK CHOCOLATE IS THE NEW LOVE OF MINE!! *hints*

2008-01-11T20:35:00.000+08:00

yayye!finally im updating again.today very happy then suddenly feel like blogging.

8 days since the school reopening and im half dead.sleeping at 1-2am everyday and then waking up late is really damn sian.homework already piling up.luckily i became more guai if not im going to drown in the sea of homework.

and some people are just so damn weird.i really dun find anything wrong with that teacher can?she may have attitude problem but she is good.a 500 word essay obviously will beat going for detention.it helps better.i mean why must people be so inflexible?why must she change for us not we change for her?getting used to her teaching will help alot.

so much for unhappy things..now for happier ones.my parents finally gave in and let me go for NP!like thats fabulous,although i admit that that i was very qian bian that time right yx,hy,xh?LOL

today the trial activity for sec ones were fun and since i gave them my hp number,they smsed me straight away.very lame.but i gues this six months will be a fun and meaningful one!haha

2007-12-16T13:02:00.000+08:00

i think yu,as an officer,are very special,very special indeed.

to yu,ice-breaking is not a form of team building.i wonder what is?yu said that team spirit is very important dint yu?i gotta admit that your form of teambuilding is absolutely unique.it is to tie lashings.like how?tie a lashing halfway then pass it to another person to continue then the next person will take over and at the end find your lashing and see if it is right?or better still,two people tie a lashing and every few minutes the partner will change?gosh.i have to praise your creativity.its the first time i ever heard of such a thing.

yu leave us there bewildered and wondering what we could do.seeing the cadets so bored,restless,tired and like strangers,naturally we would think of something to get them more interested and to know each other better like games.i apologise for not being able to come up with better ideas like using lashings to improve the team spirit,we are just not creative enough.

i wonder which kind of clock yu use.because the time has a difference of 1 hour.its really time to fix it.otherwise yu will end up early by an hour if yu were to meet up with other people and start thinking that people are very late.it wouldn't be a nice misunderstanding.or is it because yu dilly-dally alot and yu are often late thats why yu need a clock faster by an hour?whatever it is,please fix your clock.

if yu thank us for coming back,why even pump us?it utterly make no sense.no sense as to why we were pumped.if it were because we did not inform the officers,go see a doctor.i suspect yu are suffering from senile dementia.better seek treatment before the condition worsens and yu even forget who yu are.we did very clearly mention which dates we were tied up with work commitments.if it were because we had a job,see a psychiatrist.i think yu are mentally imbalanced and therefore jealous.if it were because we came back,check into hougang chalet and never check out.we specially came back although we were deadbeat and aching all over.and what's more,my house is in the opposite direction.so if we were pumped because specially made the effort to come back,yu are 100% kisiao.

if team spirit is emphasised,i don;t see a reason why we can allow our fellow squadmate pump when we all played a part in making that suggestion.i certainly do believe that yu take words of people of lower rank than yu as passing wind.we ask a question and there isn't any answer.

and the way yu talk,is as though(like lam yarn ma'am would say)talking to the ants.who do yu expect to be able to hear yu speak?i think only one person can hear-yu.

stop being too demanding will yu?yu order others around as though yu are the biggest.some things can be done on your own(unless yu are physically disabled) like fetching some little things.hello,we are human,not dogs.

yes we are happy after yu scold us,very happy indeed.next time yu scold,please do scold so unreasonably.we will be elated.

this post was supposed to be up quite long ago but i lagged.and even after posting,im still fuming.so there might be a continuation.

2007-11-12T22:12:00.000+08:00

i lost my wallet and i am aint happy about that,so,the person who took my wallet,hope you trip while walking,choke while eating and fall while climbing.thats for being dishonest and taking away something that is so important.im gonna have to spend time informing my loss of cards.damn you.damn you.damn you!!!im not done cursing you.and i will continue.

so much for unhappy stuff.i have to start clearing the cobwebs off my blog..and it sure will be hard work!so,xiaohui,hewei,and ashley,im updating!hahaha.

nothing much to blog about though,the campcraft test was pretty much ok but there were a few outstanding ones as i noticed at the flagstaff and lashings.and some were pretty much disappointing,they didn't even bother.the walkie talkie was quite fun and interesting especially with people purposely accidentally misusing it -.-|||

i owe many people this thing and im paying it back all at one shot.

"According to the rules of the theme: People who are tagged should write a blog post of 7 weird things about them as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 7 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says 'You are tagged' in their comments and tell them to read their blog."

1)i love being in the rain but hate being wet(ironic i know)
2)i think the smell of a box of new pencils is nice(right yixin?)
3)no matter how much i sleep i still feel like sleeping(a pig in the making...)
4)i can laugh for a moment and cry the next
5)i like cute things but feel weird owning them
6)i play along to almost anyone even when i know its crazy
7)i laugh a little too much

7 people?i lazy to think la.so there will be noone sabo-ed by me.see im nice.wonder if santa will get me anything -.-|||

2007-11-11T22:31:00.001+08:00

okay im going to start complaining again so if yu all dun like to read it then i seriously advice that yu all leave.

argh.can yu tell the difference between 1987 and 2007?back then the _____ was a disaster but now it isn't ok?even if i didn't mind that,comfort and suitability counts doesn't it?i complain of being uncomfortable and even walk with much difficulty.can yu all at least try to understand that?i guess not huh..if not yu all would have gave me a thing that was needed very much.yu all may have made me bring it along,but i will never ever touch it.thats how stubborn i will be.i dun care if it makes yu scream at me or not.cause im tired of being the child that dares not tell yu all my opinions.since yu all aren't willing to listen,why should i?i dun wanna be that little girl anymore,trying to please yu all is an uphill task,everytime i near the final destination,yu kick me far far away.and it happens almost all the time.

i have become pretty desperate for your care yu know?i often wish that i would fall sick so that at least yu all would notice me that little bit.quite unfortunately,it never happens.whenever i come close to falling sick,i would miraculously recover.why is it just so damn hard for me to get your attention?the only time yu all would pay attention to me is when i do wrong things.what about those times when i did things right?or is it in your eyes im never right?coz if i recall,i dun seem to have been praised since so long ago.it seems that yu are trying to find fault with me all the time.even when i spent my weekend washing the car with my every bit of effort when i could be enjoying time at the computer or outside,yu still pick on those little mistakes.im still a student,not a professional car washer!

everytime,i tell them i did my best,they would say that the best is not enough.ok,i know that but yu really cant expect very much from me.i inhereted my genes from yu all ok?

maybe the week long break away from home may let things turn out better,or maybe not.i had had the some hope before but it did not turn out as i hoped for,so maybe not too high a hope this time.

ever wondered why i come home late everyday?its cause i cant stand it at times.at these times,i dread returning home,i already know what's in store for me.locking myself in the room or toilet lets me hide from all these.omg,now i starting to blabber nonsense.i think i'd better stop before things get out of hand.

2007-11-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

i dunno was is their problem but it seems they are all out to make my life miserable.

first they are biased.yes i know that it is important to be frugal but here are some things tht cannot be saved!its the basic necessities.why is it that yu all are so eager to buy things for them yet so stingy to get me wad i need?don't yu all see the difference?im you child too yu know?why is it that the treatment is so different?i didn't mind when yu all spent more time on the other two.i tried to be understanding.i told myself that yu all weren't biased at all.but the difference is too great to be unseen.when i asked for help yu all brushed me off saying that i should be independent.why thank yu very much.so that is why i always keep to myself.there is no point at all in telling yu all because yu all seem indifferent.

no doubt i may have grown up.but i still need encouragement.yu all only critisise all the time.im sick and tired of it.thats why i dun feel sorry to yu all but instead i feel that i've let grandma down.all the time yu all only know how i've failed,never how i've improved.if critisism is your form of encouragment,i'd rather not be encouraged.

now yu all seem to want to take away everything that means the world to me.first yu pull me out.its not like im not miserable enough.to be it is where i can find true joy,where im not seen as invisible.but now,im invisible to everyone there.yu know how the feeling is?all my pals whom i deemed as people who i would remember for life seem to distant away from me overnight.

i grit my teeth and endured that because i though that at least some things would remain,the ice cream and donuts,the dandelions and the swings,the long bus rides and the favourite spot where would talk about almost everything,the squash and the gym trips.all these still let me have some hope.at least there was still things that would remain.and yet yu all said that we were moving,and to pasir ris!?!now im really distant from everything.perhaps the only good point is that its rather close to papa minghui.close to him,far from xiaohui,eileen,hewei and many more.

at this point of time,LIFE SUCKS.

2007-11-05T22:00:00.000+08:00

this post was monday's but unfortunately blogger dun want work with me.so today then can post.zzz

today was a very very sleepy day.drooping off almost every lesson.haha.must be the open house la.take up so much of my energy.hahaha.but really i've got no complaints as it was all worth it.

after school sijia,yixin,huiying and i waited for ruiling before going for lunch.meanwhile,we played daidee,cheat and a new game called "wu gui".today i think i was really very lucky coz everyone but me kena "wu gui"-ed.haha.but somehow i ended up being called the "chao dar wu gui".couldn't figure out why.

after ruling came we went to kallang kfc for lunch.and oh boy it was really late lunch.on the way there,we created a name for the clique "CC3T"(Choo,Cheng,TAN x3)so cool.haha.

then at kfc was super high.but i could not remember the details..so that's about all.

then i shall skip to yesterday.sian la.i wanted to go to sentosa with rl they all but then my parents dun allow.so in the end went to ecp to camp =.= went there and pitched the tent in a short while and fell asleep.then i kept waking up cause the mosquitoes keep biting me!argh.damn itchy can?and at 530am liddat it started raining.i woke up first and started saying"xia yu le!" then in record time,we cleared everything and soon enough we were on the way home.i miss my bed!!!=.=

so i shall announce I DUN EVER WANNA CAMP AT ECP AGAIN!muahaha.

tanjin,i have updated so dun say i never ok?
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2007-10-22T21:58:00.000+08:00

today after school i went to do something i never expected myself to do.i lacked alot of courage so i pulled tanjin along.quite unfortunately,_______ saw me and i guess he found out.with more people finding out,i dun think it would be a very good thing.

so after that walked out of school and saw albertus then we take bus 10.very very bad mood then suddenly on the bus wanna eat cake so i dragged him to cafe cartel to eat cake.ate my favourite "aunt amy's chocolate fudge cake".cheered me up abit.afterall it was all chocolate.if i didn't cheer up then i must be sot sot one.thanks alot albertus for allowing me to drag yu along.i found a person to pei wo chi cake le.thanks girlfriend!haha

LIFE SUCKS BIG TIME!
cos im so lost in this entanglement that i cant breathe.i wish i could have all of yu here to help me yet i dun wanna affect anything.

and thanks loads to tanjin and ***** for trying to cheer me up and putting me back on my feet.hmm yu owe me a treat and chocolates yu know!

2007-10-20T22:21:00.000+08:00

screwed the SSGT test like siao.

like what the hell can?moi and interview were killers.for moi i had to do hormat senjata.damn.i like suck at that can?i missed out on alot of parts and i totally skipped common mistakes!but when other people took moi,many funny things occurred.for example minghui and his spastic move "when its ke kanan,yu salute to your right(and flicks his head while saluting to the right) " and bryan laughing throughout and still dared to boldly say "wad is so funny?"haha.then he kena shoot my ma'am saying "IC yu yourself are also laughing".so he said "ok 5 counts to laugh"and he turns away laughing like siao.not to forget that we laughed very hard too.

as for the interview,i had absolutely no idea how to answer the question so i anyhow hamtam.hopefully can produce some results.

and not to forget the written test.the proposal was also hamtam one.so i blindly whacked.wth.confirm will flunk that portion.

after the test,sj mh hw xh and i went to take 10.it was damn fun.at first we disiao minghui saying him with ruiling and cheryl.grey baby huh...then after sj got off the bus,no fun teasing mh anymore so we targetted hewei instead.say him and ***** (ahem*qing cai*ahem)haha.then tease all the way until we got off.

ohya.did i mention that i was rushing home?yep.yang yang's bdae celebration today and everyone came.then i had to be very very busy.dammit.busy from the point i reached home until now,finally got time of my own.i love my baby cousins so much can?they are so cute!if there is a chance i will try to upload pictures.

thats all for now.i gotta batheand prepare to sleep cause im one very exhausted pig.maybe i shall sleep to 11 tmr morning eithout anyone disturbing me :)

2007-10-19T21:23:00.000+08:00

today we were supposed to tie the structure for open house but unfortunately,most didn't come,and we were left with the girls(right hewei?)haha.anyway,we managed to complete half a platform and the bridge.it was fun wlking on the bridge,especially seeing the people on the bridge wobble like siao.and the rest sit on the table to prevent it from toppling or moving.BUT,the bridge wasn't exactly well built and the rope snapped.zzz.but the platform was ok,except i stepped on it without support thus resulting in a humongous bruise on my leg.it was really painful ok?my main point is actually to say that girl power rocks ok?who needs boys?haha.no offence to any guys yea?maybe except to a few :X

after 3 more saturdays,its really gonna be a goodbye to my mates.i have nothing to say.but i feel that its such a waste,3 years ending just abruptly.what else can i do?it was a promise that i made so i have to keep to it.

i hate myself for this mess i got myself into

2007-10-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

i've really got myself into deep shit.with this horrendous results of mine,my parents are sooo angry.and im sooo dead.they gonna take action for sure.

so can only say im sorry to my 21 other mates and maybe farewell too.i dun think i am able to even able to make it on saturday.with far more results coming out,my parents are gonna make me give up on the thing that i have so deep a passion for.i swear i did my very best and this was one of the only few times that i really seriously studied hard.obviously that was not enough.

i need yu people right now.right at this moment where i have to make an extremely tough decision.or will any kind soul please help me tell my parents?i wanna finish the journey with the 21 of yu..each and everyone of yu mean the world to me.i dun wanna leave.

for the moment,i can only cross my fingers and hope that the rest will turn out just fine

2007-10-13T20:29:00.000+08:00

wahahaha today is damn damn damn fun!!!but quite unfortunately,very very malu

lunch went to pp the swensen's to eat cos hewei got the voucher.i reached very early so went walk walk a while and when hewei came,he was very very blind.i was standing in front of him and he did not see me.am i even that short?!?!when sijia came we went to all the food booths there and while sijia and i were buying cha ye dan,hewei go buy tako yaki.we walked to find hewei and he was standing in front of sijia and that very blind girl asked "where is hewei huh?" c'mon people,open your eyes!!!

next we went to swensen's and hewei eat sirloin steak while sijia and i ordered ice cream.hewei is a very lousy western food eater,really.then sijia felt bored i think so she put salt into her water and then put until alot.then she put ice cream and chocolate fudge in.after we played dare or dare a few rounds,she put pepper and bbq sauce with dunno wad veggie in.but i swear it only tastes of salt water...

next was squash..the two people are very fast learners.but hewei was the lousiest.haha.we play so many rounds and he keep on kena trashed.poor thing.the people in the next court made us laugh alot too.the woman damn funny coz she keep on screaming and shouting,so i decided that wad she was doing was far too vigorous.i would advice that she didn't do that too often.haha.then we went to the gym.i liked the rowing thing do already then feel very shuang.and sijia found a new method to use the pull up thing.super spastic.but really funny.

its so fun playing squash and playing so we decided to do this every week.haha.

there are more details on sijia's blog so check it out!

2007-10-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

yayye!finally exams are over and i can play like siao!wahaha..

yes i know this blog is rather dead coz i was away during the period of exams.xiaohui,im cleaning up the cobwebs ok?i need to do some spring cleaning now

seriously this is the first time i ever felt so relieved that exams are over.maybe it was the stress build up..zzz...but who cares about it now?yes i know i promised to treat the squad to japan if i pass a maths and huiying will treat sakae if she does..from that yu know how well i will fare for the a maths paper =.=

hmm just now was really bored and chatted with someone darn lame and i crapped alot too.the convo is really very very lame and somewhat pointless.who ask me to be so bored...sian

this post is kinda meaningless.and im sooo bored now.entertain me please someone.

2007-09-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

today was survivathon...nothing much to say about it though.but WEE!!!!we came in second!!!lalala.zzz.i only didnt like the part where flour went into my eyes,damn pain.but i think we got really good teamwork!heehee.we actually got full marks for one station!wahaha.and then taught sijia and hewei to play bingo(they very poor thing leh,dunno how to play that=.= whatever happened to childhood?lol.no offence to yu both yea?)

at the end of the thing we still tricked a few officers.lol.and jun yi sir can get real lame.REALLY.

then is CIP.zomg.singaporeans can be so stingy.will helping the less fortunate kill yu?its only a few cents.and must yu pretend that we are non-existant?try standing for a few hours to raise that pathetic amount of money.smiling and then walking away is much better than ignoring us totally.i swear that if yu ever did raise funds for flog day yu will never ever ignore a person selling flags again.but there are also very kind people around.only i didn't get to meet many today.zzz

thanks ______ for the ________ and also actually calling me up that day to cheer me up^^.i dun think yu will ever come see this blog but still,thanks alot.

i just lost it.those extreme mood swings are killing me.high for one moment and extremely emo the next.how much time am i going to need to walk out of this?

damn bored

2007-09-06T12:47:00.000+08:00

im kinda bored thats why i recreated a blog.zzz

im really feeling down the dumps these days and everything is killing me.omg.someone save me please.

i sholuld stop being emo man.where is the jiaying that everyone knew to be all cheerful and full of laughters?argh!!!!!

lame post