Dum Dee Dum... I am not a super hero neither am i spiderman. I am going to save the world... like as if you would believe.
I am a maniac. I came from an outer space which is filled with water. I learn swimming at the age of zero.I wail like a cry baby. I crawl like spiderman,
i fly like superman, i drive like batman. I live in wonderland. Rugrats is my friend, so is peter pan.
Jiaying
17 going on 18
loves nothing more than chocolates and S.H.I.T(which should come first?chocolates or S.H.I.T?okay S.H.I.T comes first cause chocolates would not get angry^^)
honestly,i dont think anyone will ever understand the struggles im going through right now.im so so so lost i dont know which way am i supposed to head anymore.i used to be led by blind hope but now i've awaken.
please please stop leading me in the wrong direction and giving a false sense of hope when in actual fact u aren't interested.im a girl after all and not all the smiles and laughter that i supposedly portray.
perhaps u made your stand clear by saying that i am your "bestest of best best friend".is that supposed to draw that line?im hoping for too much aren't i?
u said u dont know.its absurd.if u dont,who else will?
after today,i think i will give up.it's really too tiring.
xx signed off at 20:42
Saturday, 11 September 2010
life these days are super boring.the silence is deafening and im not used to any of this.but im the coward who refuses to come out of hiding.how am i supposed to come out of hiding when i dont feel the way i felt anymore?
i used to think i was special.now i think back and laugh at my stupidity.how much more naive could i possibly get?everyone around gets the same kind of treatment.that's how blind i am to the truth when immersed in my own world.
things are going along just fine without me,it seems.so im just that dispensible.everything is so....lope-sided,everything just due to my foolishness.
now i know.
xx signed off at 22:48
Thursday, 2 September 2010
im currently counting on the fact that everyone has given up hope on my blog and do not come here anymore.so i can write what i honestly feel
i bet u never realised how much sting your words could carry compared to others.the feeling of being stung isnt in the least nice,"painful" would be apt.surprisingly,the apology that follows made things more painful.
honestly i dont know what on earth u are thinking,sometimes im like your clown,entertaining u at your beck and call.is that all im worth to u?u seriously got me confused.
