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Monday, 12 November 2007

i lost my wallet and i am aint happy about that,so,the person who took my wallet,hope you trip while walking,choke while eating and fall while climbing.thats for being dishonest and taking away something that is so important.im gonna have to spend time informing my loss of cards.damn you.damn you.damn you!!!im not done cursing you.and i will continue.

so much for unhappy stuff.i have to start clearing the cobwebs off my blog..and it sure will be hard work!so,xiaohui,hewei,and ashley,im updating!hahaha.

nothing much to blog about though,the campcraft test was pretty much ok but there were a few outstanding ones as i noticed at the flagstaff and lashings.and some were pretty much disappointing,they didn't even bother.the walkie talkie was quite fun and interesting especially with people purposely accidentally misusing it -.-|||

i owe many people this thing and im paying it back all at one shot.

"According to the rules of the theme: People who are tagged should write a blog post of 7 weird things about them as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 7 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says 'You are tagged' in their comments and tell them to read their blog."

1)i love being in the rain but hate being wet(ironic i know)
2)i think the smell of a box of new pencils is nice(right yixin?)
3)no matter how much i sleep i still feel like sleeping(a pig in the making...)
4)i can laugh for a moment and cry the next
5)i like cute things but feel weird owning them
6)i play along to almost anyone even when i know its crazy
7)i laugh a little too much

7 people?i lazy to think la.so there will be noone sabo-ed by me.see im nice.wonder if santa will get me anything -.-|||

xx signed off at 22:12

Sunday, 11 November 2007

okay im going to start complaining again so if yu all dun like to read it then i seriously advice that yu all leave.

argh.can yu tell the difference between 1987 and 2007?back then the _____ was a disaster but now it isn't ok?even if i didn't mind that,comfort and suitability counts doesn't it?i complain of being uncomfortable and even walk with much difficulty.can yu all at least try to understand that?i guess not huh..if not yu all would have gave me a thing that was needed very much.yu all may have made me bring it along,but i will never ever touch it.thats how stubborn i will be.i dun care if it makes yu scream at me or not.cause im tired of being the child that dares not tell yu all my opinions.since yu all aren't willing to listen,why should i?i dun wanna be that little girl anymore,trying to please yu all is an uphill task,everytime i near the final destination,yu kick me far far away.and it happens almost all the time.

i have become pretty desperate for your care yu know?i often wish that i would fall sick so that at least yu all would notice me that little bit.quite unfortunately,it never happens.whenever i come close to falling sick,i would miraculously recover.why is it just so damn hard for me to get your attention?the only time yu all would pay attention to me is when i do wrong things.what about those times when i did things right?or is it in your eyes im never right?coz if i recall,i dun seem to have been praised since so long ago.it seems that yu are trying to find fault with me all the time.even when i spent my weekend washing the car with my every bit of effort when i could be enjoying time at the computer or outside,yu still pick on those little mistakes.im still a student,not a professional car washer!

everytime,i tell them i did my best,they would say that the best is not enough.ok,i know that but yu really cant expect very much from me.i inhereted my genes from yu all ok?

maybe the week long break away from home may let things turn out better,or maybe not.i had had the some hope before but it did not turn out as i hoped for,so maybe not too high a hope this time.

ever wondered why i come home late everyday?its cause i cant stand it at times.at these times,i dread returning home,i already know what's in store for me.locking myself in the room or toilet lets me hide from all these.omg,now i starting to blabber nonsense.i think i'd better stop before things get out of hand.

xx signed off at 22:31

Saturday, 10 November 2007

i dunno was is their problem but it seems they are all out to make my life miserable.

first they are biased.yes i know that it is important to be frugal but here are some things tht cannot be saved!its the basic necessities.why is it that yu all are so eager to buy things for them yet so stingy to get me wad i need?don't yu all see the difference?im you child too yu know?why is it that the treatment is so different?i didn't mind when yu all spent more time on the other two.i tried to be understanding.i told myself that yu all weren't biased at all.but the difference is too great to be unseen.when i asked for help yu all brushed me off saying that i should be independent.why thank yu very much.so that is why i always keep to myself.there is no point at all in telling yu all because yu all seem indifferent.

no doubt i may have grown up.but i still need encouragement.yu all only critisise all the time.im sick and tired of it.thats why i dun feel sorry to yu all but instead i feel that i've let grandma down.all the time yu all only know how i've failed,never how i've improved.if critisism is your form of encouragment,i'd rather not be encouraged.

now yu all seem to want to take away everything that means the world to me.first yu pull me out.its not like im not miserable enough.to be it is where i can find true joy,where im not seen as invisible.but now,im invisible to everyone there.yu know how the feeling is?all my pals whom i deemed as people who i would remember for life seem to distant away from me overnight.

i grit my teeth and endured that because i though that at least some things would remain,the ice cream and donuts,the dandelions and the swings,the long bus rides and the favourite spot where would talk about almost everything,the squash and the gym trips.all these still let me have some hope.at least there was still things that would remain.and yet yu all said that we were moving,and to pasir ris!?!now im really distant from everything.perhaps the only good point is that its rather close to papa minghui.close to him,far from xiaohui,eileen,hewei and many more.

at this point of time,LIFE SUCKS.

xx signed off at 23:34

Monday, 5 November 2007

this post was monday's but unfortunately blogger dun want work with me.so today then can post.zzz

today was a very very sleepy day.drooping off almost every lesson.haha.must be the open house la.take up so much of my energy.hahaha.but really i've got no complaints as it was all worth it.

after school sijia,yixin,huiying and i waited for ruiling before going for lunch.meanwhile,we played daidee,cheat and a new game called "wu gui".today i think i was really very lucky coz everyone but me kena "wu gui"-ed.haha.but somehow i ended up being called the "chao dar wu gui".couldn't figure out why.

after ruling came we went to kallang kfc for lunch.and oh boy it was really late lunch.on the way there,we created a name for the clique "CC3T"(Choo,Cheng,TAN x3)so cool.haha.

then at kfc was super high.but i could not remember the details..so that's about all.

then i shall skip to yesterday.sian la.i wanted to go to sentosa with rl they all but then my parents dun allow.so in the end went to ecp to camp =.= went there and pitched the tent in a short while and fell asleep.then i kept waking up cause the mosquitoes keep biting me!argh.damn itchy can?and at 530am liddat it started raining.i woke up first and started saying"xia yu le!" then in record time,we cleared everything and soon enough we were on the way home.i miss my bed!!!=.=

so i shall announce I DUN EVER WANNA CAMP AT ECP AGAIN!muahaha.

tanjin,i have updated so dun say i never ok?
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