Dum Dee Dum... I am not a super hero neither am i spiderman. I am going to save the world... like as if you would believe.
I am a maniac. I came from an outer space which is filled with water. I learn swimming at the age of zero.I wail like a cry baby. I crawl like spiderman,
i fly like superman, i drive like batman. I live in wonderland. Rugrats is my friend, so is peter pan.
Jiaying
17 going on 18
loves nothing more than chocolates and S.H.I.T(which should come first?chocolates or S.H.I.T?okay S.H.I.T comes first cause chocolates would not get angry^^)
honestly,i dont think anyone will ever understand the struggles im going through right now.im so so so lost i dont know which way am i supposed to head anymore.i used to be led by blind hope but now i've awaken.
please please stop leading me in the wrong direction and giving a false sense of hope when in actual fact u aren't interested.im a girl after all and not all the smiles and laughter that i supposedly portray.
perhaps u made your stand clear by saying that i am your "bestest of best best friend".is that supposed to draw that line?im hoping for too much aren't i?
u said u dont know.its absurd.if u dont,who else will?
after today,i think i will give up.it's really too tiring.
xx signed off at 20:42
Saturday, 11 September 2010
life these days are super boring.the silence is deafening and im not used to any of this.but im the coward who refuses to come out of hiding.how am i supposed to come out of hiding when i dont feel the way i felt anymore?
i used to think i was special.now i think back and laugh at my stupidity.how much more naive could i possibly get?everyone around gets the same kind of treatment.that's how blind i am to the truth when immersed in my own world.
things are going along just fine without me,it seems.so im just that dispensible.everything is so....lope-sided,everything just due to my foolishness.
now i know.
xx signed off at 22:48
Thursday, 2 September 2010
im currently counting on the fact that everyone has given up hope on my blog and do not come here anymore.so i can write what i honestly feel
i bet u never realised how much sting your words could carry compared to others.the feeling of being stung isnt in the least nice,"painful" would be apt.surprisingly,the apology that follows made things more painful.
honestly i dont know what on earth u are thinking,sometimes im like your clown,entertaining u at your beck and call.is that all im worth to u?u seriously got me confused.
xx signed off at 22:04
Sunday, 15 November 2009
GOOD RIDDANCE TO PW!!!~
i'm finally back to blog!haha.i was lazy to type previously u see.
been to watch 2012.not a bad movie,it was thought provoking.and especially disgusting to see how selfish people can be for their own sake.CG was fake though,how on earth can the Vatican fall forward when it is not very tall and quite broad?haha.but people should go watch it anyway.
I STILL WANNA WATCH MY SISTER'S KEEPER!
on a more sombre tone,i want to say all these in case i do not blog on the 18th.
it's been one whole year since u left so unexpectedly without even saying goodbye,and the pain has never gotten any lesser.it still feels like it just happened yesterday.
i remember crying every night after that incident,i just felt so guilty.i regretted taking u for granted,staying away from u just because we could not communicate.if only i had tried harder.i never got the chance to be nice to u,and u never got the chance to enjoy what i worked hard for.
it's all too late for regrets huh.i can only learn my lesson and not make i again.
i always thought that u leaving would have a greater effect,bringing everything back together.at least that was what it seemed like initially.little did i think that things did not turn out that way.some things are just not meant to be.
through this year,i've grown up a lot,learnt a lot too.i've learnt the is no use crying,no matter how hard things get.i've learnt that if things are too painful,there is no way to erase that pain no matter long much time has passed.i've learnt that i must treasure every single thing,no matter how small.
daddy said that i should not cry,mummy and my brothers still need to count on me.
xx signed off at 17:02
Monday, 9 November 2009
yes cherie i know my post was supposed to be here long long ago.but i got nothing to blog mah.
but today is different!i got alot of things to blog about!i will blog it tonight haha cos my laptop dying soon and i did not bring my charger.....
